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  On Friday I found myself on a spontaneous hike in the comeraghs alone and it caused me to have a moment of introspection. admittedly there is nothing new here as an introvert, I do a lot of my best thinking in the outdoors alone. I moved to Kilkenny to start over just over 5 years ago. A decision prompted by the fact that I was already working in Kilkenny and the end of a long term relationship. What I didn't realise until much later was that I had lost my sense of self while dating and my fresh start caused me to reinvent and rediscover myself in the all the best ways.  If you met me back when I lived in Waterford then you probably wouldn't recognise me now. In the absence of the shadow of someone else I paused to think about who I wanted to be and outside of drinking (which I had decided to quit mid relationship) what I actually liked to do with my time as opposed to what I was expected to enjoy and thus a new era of introvertedness came upon me. In embracing myself more, I

 This is my first post in over a year. I think I had actually forgotten I even had a blog. At some point I felt I had covered all the good topics and with nothing new to offer then what is there to write about.  However in exactly thirty days I will be leaving my thirties forever, I am pretty sure that's how growing older works for everyone but still. I am still grasping with the fact that I am about to be forty. I mean I am told I don't look my age and I mostly definitely don't feel it and yet despite all this I find myself hurtling into a new decade. I am not entirely sure this is where I pictured my life at almost forty. Not that I ever spent that much time projecting myself that far ahead but I think on some level I thought I would have it figured out. I don't, not at all. I feel as though I am a much younger person impersonating a fully grown adult and some point someone in my life will have their aha moment and out me as an imposter.  I mean adulting is not always