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How to get through a night shift. This is something I have been googling endlessly since I found myself agreeing to work nights all weekend. If there is some magic formula to working nights then I certainly haven't cracked it. I recently did my first two in the new job and pushed myself through by eating disgusting amounts of sugar and mainlining caffeine as though it was the cure to everything. You could technically say it worked in that I am alive to tell the tale of my night shift and I didn't fall asleep on the job. To be honest I had so much caffeine and sugar in me it's lucky I fell asleep again.I did however find myself crying the next day because I couldn't work out if I had enough money to eat out the next day and the thought of cooking overwhelmed me. Starting tomorrow night I have three night shifts to look forward to. I won't be able to make it to any of my boyfriends events this weekend which is a bummer. Well more so for me than him as he gets t...

I've always been emotional. Just ask one of my siblings for their many examples of how easy it was to reduce me to tears as a child. It's one of those delightful qualities that seems to have followed me into adulthood. Yay for that. I don't half ass emotional states, when I feel something I go all in. This has mostly not turned out to be a good thing. I also tend to soak up the emotions of those around me like a sponge which can be somewhat exhausting. It does make me quite adept at taking the emotional temperature of a room but otherwise not all that helpful as skills go. Something I have noticed in recent years is my incredibly powerful emotional reactions to things on tv, in movies and books. It's something I found myself dwelling on just tonight when I found myself actually bawling my eyes out watching 'Me before you'. I wont tell you anything that will give away key plot points only that it's very sad and yet somehow reading the book did not ...

I was reading an article the other day about coffee and how it becomes less effective over time at waking you up if you're not getting enough sleep. It also mentioned the concept of sleep debt which is the idea that every time you have a broken nights sleep, it adds up and you end up with this sleep debt that can take you several nights of good sleep to work off. I liked the thought of this concept and as a woman who suffers badly without adequate sleep, sleep debt was the word I'd never had to explain what I experienced. Truth be told I'm a bit useless without enough sleep. My lovely other half will only be too happy to confirm this fact. I get very emotional and a bit dim and find myself overwhelmed by simple tasks. I recently did my first two waking nights since last year and I was going around in a fug for days afterward. This weekend, I am still recovering from it. A few years back it would not be unusual to hear me say that but I have since discovered that alcoh...

In the early hours of this morning my other half peeled himself from the bed and headed out the door with a suitcase in hand. As he faces into the prospect of a holiday on an island off Denmark, I have the apartment to myself and I am not sure how I feel about that. I do happen to be one of those people that actually likes spending some time by myself, after a while without it I start to crave my own company but it seems to me there is a difference in choosing it for yourself and having it thrust upon you. I have been dating my boyfriend now for almost three years, living together just over a year and during this time we have never spent this long (he gets back on Monday) apart. I think I am feeling a little sorry for myself because I only grabbed a few hours sleep last night and I find sleep deprivation always drags my mood down. I am sure once I adjust to the emptiness of our place I will probably start to enjoy pottering around in silence.  I remember before I moved in wi...